In Loving Memory of My Dear Carol

On this Christmas Eve 2007, I dedicate this post to you Carol. The time we had will always be in my heart. This is my fourth Holiday Season without you and I still miss you so much and always will. I love you Carol.

Carol died on September 14, 2004 and on that day a part of me died with her. There is not a day that passes that I don't think about you, my Sweetheart.

When Tomorrow Starts Without Me

When tomorrow starts without me,
and I'm not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
all filled with tears for me;

I wish so much you wouldn't cry
the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things
we didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me,
as much as I love you,
And each time you think of me,
I know you'll miss me, too.

But when tomorrow starts without me,
please try and understand,
That an angel came and called my name
and took me by the hand,

And said my place was ready
in heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind
all those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,
a tear fell from my eye,
For all my life I'd always thought
I didn't want to die.

I had so much to live for
and so much yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible
that I am leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays,
the good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared
and all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday,
I thought, just for a while,
I'd say good-bye and kiss you
and maybe see your smile.

But then I fully realized
that this could never be.
For emptiness and memories
would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things
that I'd miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
my heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God look down and smiled at me,
from His great golden throne.

He said, "This is eternity
and all I've promised you.
Today your life on earth is passed,
but here it starts anew.

I promise no tomorrow,
but today will always last,
and since each day's the same day,
there's no longing for the past.

But you have been so faithful,
so trusting and so true,
Though there were times you did some things
you knew you shouldn't do.

But you have been forgiven,
and now at last your free.
So won't you take my hand
and share my life with me?"

So when tomorrow starts without me,
don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here in your heart.